[prologue]
The tears that I shed
Give me fear and dread
The things that you said
Ring loud in my head
My heart has bled
Now I'm stained in red
My pain leaves me dead
And all hope has fled
[pre-chor]
Have you got something to say...
[Chorus 1]
Well it's my turn to talk
My turn to walk
To paint my heart on streets and sidewalks
You knocked me down
and I can't get back up
I can't make a sound
Because You shut me up
But it's my turn to talk
and My turn to walk
To paint my heart on streets and sidewalks
Cuz you knocked me down
But I'm getting up
You won't make a sound
Cuz I'm speaking up-
It's my turn!
[Verse 1]
When I first saw you I couldn't say a thing
I couldn't have explained what was happening;
The world seemed to stop and the hours froze
But far too soon opposite ways we go
The distance made it hard but we swore to stay strong
Things were going great; nothing could go wrong
I was so naive; too short-sighted to see
How loving you would be the death of me.
[pre-chor]
Do you have something to say...
[Chorus 2]
Well it's my turn to talk
My turn to walk
To paint my heart on streets and sidewalks
You knocked me down
and I can't get back up
I can't make a sound
Because You shut me up
But it's my turn to talk
and My turn to walk
To paint my heart on streets and sidewalks
Cuz you knocked me down
But I'm getting up
You won't make a sound
Cuz I'm speaking up-
It's my turn!
[Verse 2]
August fifth; that's when it all began
You had just become my girlfriend
And one month later we're still going good
I'm doing the things a good boyfriend should
A month after that, what a mystery
For more than a week, you didn't speak to me
Not even on our 3month anniversary
But on the following day broke up with me
[Pre-chor]
And now you have something to say?
[Chorus 3]
Well it's my turn to talk
My turn to walk
to paint my heart on streets and sidewalks
You shot me down
Should I get back up
Can my voice resound
After being locked up
Yes it's MY turn to talk
and MY turn to walk
To carry a smile as I walk on sidewalks
You knocked me down
Now I've gotten up
My voice resounds
As I'm speaking up
It's my turn!
[Bridge]
I shed no more tears
Because it is clear
That it's better this way
Today is my day
All pain is gone
And I'm moving on
I don't care what you do
'Cuz I've found someone new
[Chorus 4]
'Cuz it's my turn to talk
My turn to walk
To scribble R&K with sidewalk chalk
I can't be knocked down
Because I'm standing tall
Towards new life am I bound
Ne'er again shall I fall
'Cuz it's my turn to talk
My turn to walk
To scribble R&K with sidewalk chalk
I can't be knocked down
Because I'm standing tall
Towards new life am I bound
Ne'er again shall I fall
simple request...
could everyone tell me what theyve been up to for the past 4 weeks?
I hadn't posted anything for a while so I thought this would be a great opportnity. I'm in New York right now and I am loving it! The ten hour train ride I took to get here wasn't so hot, but hey, it got me here in one piece. Anyway, on to New York. Oh wait! Our train was scheduled to leave at 4am, that's right 4am and we were going to leave at 2am because you have to be here an hour before the train leaves at the very least. So, I figured why sleep? What would be the point of going to bed at 12 and waking up 2 hours later? There wouldn't be a point. So, naturally, I stayed up...only to find out later that our train was delayed 5 FREAKING HOURS!!! In short, train supposed to leave at 4...train leaves at 9:30. Uh....oh right New York. Sorry I lost my train of thought.
Yes...I realize that is one of the worst puns ever in the history of terrible puns. But that's what I said to myself, woah, lost my train of thought, so i figured that I might as well put it in.
I love this place. ((Except for: All thte over-priced food, aggresive driving, smelly taxi-drivers (not kidding, this one guy smelled like something had died after eating something that had just died! And I was in the front seat right next to him!), Non-English-speaking taxi-drivers (that smelly guy didnt speak a lick of english. He was able to say the numbers of the steets' names we told him to go to. that's it!), smelly non-english-speaking taxi-drivers, and...Harlem.)) But other than that, it's awesome. I'm going to 3 Broadway shows, taking a tour of Ground Zero, and today I took an all day tour (9am-5:30pm) where i learned, essentially, everything there is to knkow about New York. In this tour were 2 sub-tours: a boat tour that went all by almost alll the islands. got some close-ups of the Statue of Liberty, and other stuff. and a tour of the UN. It's going to be great!
I've been filming a lot during this trip. I filmed on the way here, and definitely here. And I mus say I've gotten some...pretty interesting stuff. I'd like to start editing now, but I think I may have left the chord I need at home. Good job Ryan!! But I'm gonna take a look at what all I've shot and see what I have to look forward to when my editing process is done. But I've only shot two days of footage. Sunday and Monday. I'm going to be here for Tuesday, Wedsenday, Thursday, and I leave on Friday at 2pm for another 10-hour train ride. unless it gets delayed (if it does I will be sooooo pissed).
So, when I get my editing done I may have one final video blog, or, so i can use more footage, have different featurettes that i can post. either way, they'll be up in about a week.
Later
Ok, so this Tuesday, June 12th, is my sister's 11th birthday. The following Wednesday, June 13th, is my brother's 19th birthday. Depending on how my report card looks, I should be getting a letter soon saying something like "as of such and such date, your driver's permit is no longer revoked" or "because of your acceptable academic performances, you meet the requirements to test for your driver's license." something like that. and i hope it gets here soon cuz I have been waiting 4 months to once again be able to get my license. and i had been waiting 7 months prior to that because i should've been able to get my license in september.
but anyway, so many things are happening right now that i dont even have time to use punctuation or capitalize anything. i guess ill just take everything one at a time and see how it works out.
first thing on list: party tomorrow (but not for either of my siblings. ha! its my girlfriend's friend's party and i guess i get to go. yes. i guess i dont mind smiling for that. lol)
I had to be there to make sure I wasn't imagining things. To make sure I wasn't dreaming. To make sure that my world was, for sure, about to change almost entirely.
Smurfy was graduating
"some name", "some name", "Morgan James Stewart,"... Smurfy did his "Smurfy-walk" across the stage, took his Diploma from whoever which lady was calling names at the time, and on the other end of the stage, as he was shaking hands with Mr. Telford (at least, I think it was Telford), he kind of did this thing where he pats him on the shoulder as he's going down the stairs. As if to say, "It'll be ok Mr. T. Don't miss me too much hehheh." To me, it was just funny really. After, Smurfy goes down the stairs, and does his "Smurfy-walk" back to his seat.
To me, it feels like the part of all great adventure movies, books, and plays, where one of the established characters with whom the audience has developed a strong connection, is killed.
Act II. When everything is going wrong for the protagonists and they don't know if they're going to get out alive. Thus far, my summer has sucked.
I was somewhat mentally traumatized on the very first day of Summer Vaca. But I wish not to talk about it here. Or ever again. Because I almost killed someone. Someone who is a lot younger than I am. Not to mention I knew him. I know his sister way better. And the fact that my actions had affected a lot of people is just driving me insane. The lesson this morning at church was titled, "What Sin Can Do For You." And at some point, our preacher said something related to guilt, and how even people who have been brought up right and have a good, moral conscience, they can still feel guilt (or something like that). But he continued and mentioned how guilt can actually cause psycological problems. And right now, I feel so overwhelmed.
Junior year after summer, guilt, and a mess of other things.
Thanks for reading everyone. I just need to get this out.
